Just Another Day
By Kiara
Hi,
I did take a sick leave today.
Worked on my personal website for almost half a day.
I’ll later work on some office stuff.
Just an average lazy Monday.
Why I Started Blogging
I started writing this blog to find people who are going through similar things in life.
Not sure if I’m going to have any visitors on this.
I mean… whose life would be as mundane as mine?
The Distraction: “Rishta” Talk
I think I know why I’m so distracted today.
It must be because of this “Rishta.”
So in India, the concept of arranged marriage is really popular.
It’s basically your parents finding a suitable spouse for you.
I’m not against the idea — it’s not like I have someone in my life.
So why not let parents find someone?
How It Started
Around 3–4 weeks ago, a distant relative called my nani (my mom’s mother)
and asked if she was looking for a suitable guy for me.
She said we (me and the guy) come from similar family backgrounds.
I’m not exactly sure what she meant, but yeah…
Things moved forward — biodatas were exchanged.
The guy’s mom and my mom had a few calls and WhatsApp conversations.
There was no involvement of me or the guy in these early talks.
First, both families were trying to decide if we’d be a good match.
The Last Conversation
The last call was three days ago.
According to me, it went well.
It ended with both families mutually agreeing that now the children (me and the guy) should talk and decide.
I actually liked the guy.
I mean, not that I know much about him —
but based on what I do know, I really liked him.
Silence…
But we haven’t heard anything from their end since that last conversation.
It’s strange.
Did they reject me?
- Do they think I won’t be a good fit for their son?
- Am I ugly?
- Was my parents’ separation a concern?
It’s sad.
Not sure if I’ll ever find anyone.
Work Isn’t Helping
Work is not going great either.
I recently switched jobs.
It’s been a virtual onboarding because of the COVID situation.
I don’t know many people there, so it’s kind of boring.
Mixed Emotions
To sum it up:
My life sucks.
But…
I guess I should be thankful that at least I have a life.
And I do have a lot of things I can be grateful for.
Thank God for everything I do have.
It’s just that sometimes, in my mind,
the things I don’t have overweight the priceless things I do.
Let’s call it a day.
Love you all,
Kiara